Outta my life bitch!!

Dear Bloggie,

It has been so long I didn't write my stories here..It seems I wanted badly to write over my vacations experience and etc.However loads of things happen which I assume no one would understand accept myself.

FYI, I just recover from chicken pox, which I have no idea..Totally out of mind from where I got it..Hoho..My greatest pressie on 1st of April 2012...Holy shit man..I was realized the blister, the lump on my neck and my body and I was like..Oh just because on that week I ate loads of seafood.So fyra assumption : Food Allergy..

WARNING: IF SOMETHING WEIRD APPEAR ON YOUR BODY, YOU HAVE TO DIRECT YOURSELF TO NEAREST CLINIC,HOSPITAL or ANYWHERE..Do not have

your so call own assumption.

It was bad for yourself for beginning month.I was suffered like hell with the spot grows like nobody business on whole body..I was crying like a sh*t wondering my skin goes hell.

EVERYONE KNOWS HOW MUCH FYRA ADORE HER OWN SKINS..Grr..2nd Of April I am back home and mum and dad took care of me.Seriously I am about to death I guess so.I feel weak,not comfy and sleepy.Most of time I was fall asleep.And thankfully No urgent calls from work.Only a few and I screen all the calls.I am so sorry.At that moment what I need

was a sleep sleep,water,sleep, sleep and comfort.Things turn to much more better after I took propolis and few medicines.YES..It burned most of my salaries..Uwaa...But it pay off..Now only a few spot and it getting fade day by day.

Well, is not that point..Sick makes me had more time for myself and yes I am recover from heart broke during that time. March was the worst month for myself.I am seriously have no idea

what is going on.I better say, things happen with a reasons and I had swallowed of the facts.

I was madly on crush with someone who is 1000 miles or 2000 miles away from me.I am blinded frankly.When he was disappear with no news I am learnt to accept the fact.In fact is not

first time.I am learnt to accept he is not belong to me. Icha and Rudy Azhar are 2 persons, the most who comfy me when HE WAS GONE.Eventually on that hardest time I do have surrounded friends, families who well support me and cheer me up.

March was a month I found him again..And yes I was HAPPY EXCITEDLY and knows HE IS BACK.I have no idea how to put in words but I am Happy..YES I AM HAPPY..But I may forget event the chocolate have an expiry date.Is like how you feel when sweet stuff turn to sour. And thats I had face in just blink of my eye the feeling.I gone mad after found out through the conversations.Seriously I felt stupid,useless and few others feelings.And FYRA lost her GRIP!!!Thanks to Ichaa, Rudy Azhar, Eddy,Mr Sing and few of them who comfort me

during the hardest time.Ichaa was basically being just like mom warned me not to do stupid stuff..I cried a lot..It makes me feel better.Thanks Eddy..I know finally you saw me crying.Hahha..Silly Fyra..Yes the feeling is gone.I bet off.Eddy was warned and advised me to erase the pictures.Yes, I will do when I have the guts but not now.I may erase the picture

but not the memories I had crafted with him.

Dad was right.He never went wrong when I told him about this guy. Dad said " It is a sign to leave him, you cried a lot than you laugh harder when you was with him". Furthermore mum, on the other hand quote me something that makes me takes this thing in a very very positive side " When people walk away from you, let them go. Your destiny is never tied to anyone who leaves you, and it doesn't mean they are bad people. It just means that their part in your story is over".

Thanks to mum and dad.You know your daughter loves to do hard things and discover everything is wrong by the end of the day.

Yes, I do accept the fact but sometimes in the middle of night or when I am alone I am wondering about him and think of how he does.My pray goes with him.I just wish him all the best in his life.Is not his mistake came in to my life.It is my mistake by letting the feelings get carried me away.

Anyway..thats all.I have nothing more to tell.Maybe will write off my past vacations experiences or any interesting stories.

p/s: Fyra still with her dumb blond research for her next get away... =)