A thought

Today...

Again the thought came and disturb me. It's near to a month and yet I did not get any answer from the respective establishment..

For year 2013, I plan..

*Not to celebrate the CNY at old place and yet I STILL!!

*I plan not to see some people that I feel I nak car key and I STILL SEE THEM!!

*I plan not to celebrate my hari raya HERE! And I could feel I will.

*I plan not to deal with so call genius yang tak menjadi and I STILL deal with them.

The worst part, when you get the update from "someone" the person said.."Why not you stay here, if you perform well, they will see your performance and you will be offer"

Ok,so call person..(yang aku rasa ko ni bangang bengong sial dengan jawapan terinzal ko kan)
**Listen**

Seems I believe I should voice out let me clarify..

-basically I am bonded and yet  oh yet I dah nak berkarat almost 2years8month and I could see nothing..I repeat NOTHING!!!

The reason you don't want me to go due you yourself are arse to find the replacement.You want to ease your job..And let me ask you.Do you speak using your mind or tits?

Frankly, I will not let myself die together with this F companies.I have to do so due I am bonded.And AGAIN indeed I pretend to be happiest lady on earth. You yourself at the stage of comforting and go with the flow.I don't want to be here again. And again doing the same thing!!

I don't know what cross your mind to utter your statement yang aku rasa nak car key..ko ada otak ke tak?

Wei do you think all this time, i kerja main main ke? You rasa you rasa?

In my POV I don't see any miracle,opportunity coming in.And again if you ask me what I am gonna be in another 1 year. I will say the same job the same me.Oh yeah 1 year seems so long ..Lets make it realistic baby!! 6 month!!

I am telling you, deeply from my heart..If I am complete my cirt ASAP!! Do you think I will slavery my diva self into not-so what ever la this company after bonded? THE ANSWER IS NO!!

AS FAR AS I CONCERNED WHEN I SAY YES I WILL DO MEANS I WILL!!
Now saya dah bengang!!

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