Things to ponder...

Things That I am Trying To Say Is...

Hola Blog,

1.I am single and but not available..What I a m trying to say is..I am Hawt and Spicy!!(mampos Ann caruts)I am single but most time I am occupied with families, friends and works. I choose who can be my MATE and who I can MATE with.

2.I am a visible person and I speak direct. What I am trying to say is. I used loads of vulgar words and if you don't like. The door is widely open just for you. I will be happy to usher you out. (macam la ko tak pernah carutz kan)

3.Sayang, Intan Payung, Periuk Belanga, Kuali, Senduk,Sudip..If you late means you are late.Wake up!! Sweet words does not change anythings. If you get my drift!!

4.Saya suka perasan seorang diri. Oh coming from mix parentage families is a token for me. Oh yes!! saya suka perasan cantik seorang diri dan tidak memerlukan bantuan sokongan. Serta tidak mencederakan mana mana pihak.Termasuk pihak ke dua ke tiga dan seterusnya.

5.My XYZ left me to bleed.. (and there went a series of cut-paste heartbroken quotes from the net)- what I’m trying to say is- I just broke off with XYZ, I am the victim here. I am now a single good guy/girl wanting attentions from one of you. Any takers? (Eh macam aku la pulak)

6.I am not cowards. What I am trying to say is. Even I don’t have balls but I am willing to voice things that went wrong.

7.I rasa nak beli Galaxy S III S 4 5 6. What I am trying to say is.Even I tak de duit yang cukup I tetap nak bergaya.. Now (sila habiskan ayat ni dengan perkataan yang sesuai....)

8. I believe things that permanents in life are families and friends. What I am trying to say is..Even ko bercinta bagai nak rak ala ala romeo juliet, laila majnun. You need to know, not all things long lasting.

9. Saya suka update status FB saya..What I am trying to say is..I know you love attentions..But can you please grow up? Status anda nampak sangat murah..

10.I am a drama queen. And I suka berdrama..Pengsan....

Now...Saya sudah feeling feeling seperti seekor burung merak.Cantik dan bergaya!!Hhaha..Sekian..

Ann,Lipas, Ridsect

Hola blog,

Today 10/08/12 as usual I chat with Ms Arthur ,which currently located in far far far away land..Alabama..
So bruk brek bruk brek 2 ekor cerita pasal Khloe Kardashian, pasal kerja,baju, percutian impian, teman lelaki, kasut tinggi (ye ke) so and so..

Actually I dok membebel la dekat Si Ann ni pasal hari raya dah dekat tapi aku baju raya tak beli lagi.
Ye la semalam jalan jalan dengan Si Bill kat Jalan TAR.Tengok baju kurung..Nah ambik ko.RM 259 nett..
Terkejang sejuk kejap.Terfikir brand MANGO or ZARA ke.Mahal gila dowh.Corak simple..Add on mannequin, sequin, lace la kan..Terfikir nak pakai kejap je..Then confirm confirm baju tu in the end tinggal dalam almari je.

Vee Ariff pun tak bagi tarikh dia nak kahwin,which I expect baju raya + baju wedding during Vee's big day.Suddenly Ann senyap..Which I expect she was sleeping suddenly.....scroll down please..........

Ann sempat bercerita pasal Ridsect.Sumpah aku tengah bersiap nak pergi kerja terguling ok..Boleh dia cakap kat US..ridsect very effective.Sekali ko sembur..Belum tentu hidup..Confirm mati..
But in  Malaysia..Hah..Ko boleh tengok itu lipas pusing pusing macam gasing.Jalan 2 3 round then mati..Erk dan mungkin..lipas tu hidup dan terus berjalan sebelum betul betul mati..Got reason ok..

Reality, Mask, Plastic and August

Hola blog,


Disclaimer: Cerita ini berdasarkan kisah benar si penulis.Jika terdapat persamaan di antara si pembaca.Hanyalahkebetulan semata mata.Ini berdasarkan kebolehan penulis mengaitkan dengan keadaan sekeliling.Sila pengsan sambil terguling ayapan selama 71 saat.

Well today is 16 day i am up for fasting.Cool gila..And was like 12 more days to go for me to pack my stuffand leave home.Penang yo...

And today, I have the feeling to write more about my past. Which it was part of chapter of my life.I am not blaming anyone who ever in these stories.Come on they came to colour my life.To be more colourful and interesting.

Few days ago, was whats app with Ms Ann Arthur.Ann used to be with me lepak lepak, wasting time.Was meet her in 2010 roughly nearly end of year in club.Intro by Priya.So year by year, i kenal la Si Ann ni.We are not too close but we text each other.Only recently dia fly to Alabama i feel we are quite close.(Now sila pitam dengan ini statement).Each day, we always whats app, tanya khabar or even buat mesyuarat tingkap secara PJJ.Ko ada? Non ada.LOL..

One of it, masa aku selak selak album si Ann, terpandang la Dash Collection.Which on of my obsession.Due I am one of fan for Khloe Kardashian.So berlaku la dialog dialog terinzal in between KL-ALabama.Before that ,Ann was telling me she was busy and spend almost 13 hours at club house.

Terfikir tahap melampau, ko kutip bola golf ke wei...Busy dow..Sebab approximately 11.30 am..That was peak hours for two of us ber bruk brek bruk brek until battery samseng habis.Hah ambik ko..Gossip yang maha hebat.All of stories kerja,cintan,even sesi counter back watever la dey all in one.

See above..Very the diva punya perangai.Minta suruh beli, siap tinggal pesanan,"Ko ensure paper bag tu maintain ye".Pengsan...Dan perangai tue tak habis lagi siap ada kesinambungan...Mati Ann carut kat sana..LOL..I love you woman...

Suddenly yesterday dated on 4th August 2012 around 9 something, was chat with my monkey bro.And out of sudden he threw me a question.

"Do you find me annoying sometimes"?
As for me, I reply with my sincere comment.I am not wearing mask.

"Yes , babe but I know you so no sweat".

Take note- I accept you monkey at your best and at your worst!!!

Come on is almost 5 years I knew him, that time I was 19 years old.And now I am going to 25 soon.

And now I came across of this question, all this time why not some people just being real and not being so chicken.Come on grow up!! You may forget this " In drama there are many ways to unmask a villain. "
I pondered for few minutes, for all this time what is this? Are you fooling around with people feeling?
Have you ever think, how it hurts? Or I may forget we are adults and should deal in this way? Or this is the way for you to fooling me around?

MAYBE I forget to quote this specifically for myself.To deary Afira Asfari
"  Sometimes you know who the bad guy is from the start.... but most times you find out they've been in front of you all along. "

Unfortunately I may forget we are all the actors and actresses on earth who wearing mask each day just to fit the stories.Or shall I say,"We all wear different masks for different reasons.Some masks we put on because it's truly who we want to be. Some we wear because we can't bear to face what's really underneath. Or because it's what someone else needs us to be".

I am not blaming these "makhluk" but I bet you don't have the guts to speak the truth.We both knows what was happened and I personally believe I had done my part to make things back to normal.But the words and actions you uttered towards me in very sarcastic ways.Why not spit the truth?.I bet there is no point to fix the damages.You are too good to pretend nothing was happened.Come on do not say you did not get my whats app, call or watever la ..

"In our modern age, when you call someone and can't find them you can be pretty sure they'll get the message. But if they don't call you back, it usually means they don't want to be found". 

So I knew the stories now, as for me is ok. I am fine with it.At least I believe all this time
you just bushed around. I am not mad after all.Thank you for making my life more colourful
even for short time. I treasure of it and it was a good memories after all.I am thankful TO YOU for the time you find to cherish me. I do keep all the memories the both of us crafted together.I thank you for being one of good friend, a good joker, a shoulder when I was need to cry on, and etc.But please stop wearing a mask.Be who you are.I wish all things good with you.And it is time for me to say a GOODBYE.As I found this is the best way to stop the drama between two of us.I prefer to say it out loud and make it clearly for two of us rather than sending a messages that I even can smell sarcastic tone inside it.Like daa!!!.I am realistic and preferably to say all things directly.As for me that is a better way or maybe I am just a person who has feeling feeling with thousand of emotions? Silence in ELEGANT or ARROGANT? Now I let you to decide...

"And some masks we wear because we hope to stay hidden. But that's the problem with wearing masks. They can be ripped off at any moment"

THE BEST THING I CAN DO TO PUT AN END TO THIS CRISIS IS TO PRETEND WE NEVER KNEW EACH OTHER. I BELIEVE OVER THE TIME, THE MEMORIES WE BOTH CREATES WILL FADE AWAY SO DOES OUR EXISTENCE

Anyway..I feel better now,it is time to move on.Come on August brings what you have.I am ready to face it.What's next?

p/s : Boss oh boss apasal ye I feeling feeling these days banyak sungguh project yang you kasi.Matik la aku..
I need 28 hours.Please please...
~Hint~Kindly prioritize your work Cik Fyra..

Social Realists

Social Realists like you are popular persons full of energy. You are reliable, well organized and helpful. Traditional values are important to you. Founding a family also plays a central role in your life. Social Realists have a marked social streak. You are always ready to listen to the worries and problems of others and spare no effort when you are asked for help. With empathy and understanding, you can sense what other people need. You are always willing to highly regard the strong points of the other person and to excuse that person’s weaknesses. You are the most sociable of all personality types. Social contacts are very important to you.

Social Realists find it very difficult to cope with conflicts and criticism - harmony is your elixir of life. Acknowledgement and esteem are very important to you. Differentiation on the other hand is not necessarily one of your strong points. At work and in partnerships, you are loyal, committed and always there when needed. You find it easy to make friends due to your open, warm manner and you have a large circle of friends. Social Realists are more conservative types. You have a set system of values and rules. You prefer clear, structured surroundings and work processes; you find too much change und unrest unpleasant. Your strong points are carefulness and reliability and not so much flexibility and spontaneity. Social Realists are open-minded towards anything new only to a limited extent. But, should one be looking for someone to fulfil a task reliably and exactly, you are the right person.

The Social Realist is the most social among all personality types. For you, it is essential to choose a profession where you can deal with as many people as possible. You recharge your batteries with the help of people contact and the personal exchanges needed for your very special talents to unfold. You are the prototype of the caring person in the positive sense, because you love to act on behalf of others and care for them. If you have the impression that there is a way to contribute by improving the quality of their life, it satisfies you more than anything.

For your type, the feeling to be needed, loved, and appreciated is more than vitally necessary. Therefore, working in seclusion is not for you. It is just too much counter to your extroverted nature, and your need for interpersonal interaction.You have the best ideas during dialogues with others, as they stimulate your creativity. Instead of developing abstract aid projects with the help of a drawing board, you prefer to engage yourself on the frontlines with person to person contact. For you, it is important to see the results of your work so you can go home feeling that you (again) made the world a better place - at least a bit. 

You are a born team player. You are open and communicative, easily integrating yourself into group hierarchies. For your personality type, harmony is the keyword in your personal, as well as in your professional life. Since conflicts and power struggles seriously stress you making it difficult for you to attend to your tasks, you should put your emphasis on working in a stress free, respectful, and affectionate environment. Working environments continuously affected by tough infighting, and where competitive conflicts are intense represent too great a strain.

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Yay...after long time tidak berblog.Almaklumla aku kan perempuan yang serba serbi busy 25 jam.LOL.
Maka datang la idea untuk berblog balik after lama juga aku tinggalkan atas sebab sebab tertentu.The rest of the untold will be reveal soon.

So berbalik la pada jalan asal.After berbulan bulan tak berblog.Terdetik hati nak tulis balik.Pergh..Ok la
let me start with the unsankarable perangai batak that I don't realized I can do it.

Dated on 2nd of August, I rceived a call from long lost buddy cik enon..(acah je) Cik Katerina Abdullah.Cik Kate short form ya.Maka aku pun terkinja tak ingat dunia.Last aku tahu dia dah kahwin tu pun that time like 3 years ago, when I was in college.Maka aku pun happy la terguling ayapan kejap.So date kitaorang pukul 10 pm kat Pavilion.

So while awaiting cik enon sorang ni maka aku dengan bersuka ria la pergi membeli tiket wayang nak tengok ceritaStep Up Revolutions.Oh ya..it was how many days we fast and I am lost count ok.Take note cerita itu bermula 7.15  pm.And I have an idea to break my fast inside cinema la kononnya..Sekali nah ambik ko..Beratur yang amat panjang.I was like ya ampun aku nak berdiri kat mana ye.

Maka aku pun bersuka ria la meneruskan misi nak tengok cerita itu.Dan bermula la perut Cik Fyra berbunyi zapin.Habis je movie dalam 9.30 berlari lari la aku mencari makanan sementara menunggu cik enon yang tersangkut dalam jammeddd..Pergh..cari punya cari..Suddenly dari lapar aku teringat ice blended.Maka maha hebatla cik Fyra pergi
Starbucks.Wei..apa kes semua que yang panjang.Maka plan di tukar ke coffee bean..

Sesampainya di coffee bean..Ok la beratur pun beratur la..Que pun tak la maha hebat kan.Out of sudden,terjumpa la satu minah..Which I know her just like that..my so call neighbour yang tak berapa nak neighbour.Below are thedialogue between 2 of us yang aku rasa nak guling ayapan selama 30 saat.

Cik Gurl A (unknown name): Hey I think I know you.You looks very familiar.And OMG what happen to your hair? You
look good you just perm recently?  What you doing here?

Cik Fyra : (was like ok most of time i bunned my hair so you doesnt know)Hey is my original hair.Most of time you saw me with a bunned rite.Of coz purchase some drink.(then ko ingat aku siram pokok bunga ke)

Maka bruk brek la kami berdua sekejap dan aku pun cepat cepat bagi ayat mati aka words to end the conversations.Banyak cakap la pula minah ni..
Selepas beli ice blended tu dan menunggu cik enon yang park kereta yang sesat entah kemana until aku habis minum.Then dari jauh aku nampak la lembaga manusia..I mean cik enon yang berjalan tanpa rasa bersalah..Nah ambik ko 10.15pm.Mampos aku dah lapar tahap dewa. Guess what few minutes after that aku berlari lari ke toilet sakit perut.Perut kosong minum ais.Ko ingat ko minah saleh Fyra.Mujur tak lama but after that aku rasa pening loya and etc sampai la aku makan.Eh ajaib dah ok.Over sangat kan perut.Sorry la sayang, intan payung, periuk belanga next time no matter que tu sampai ke pavilion entrance pun aku sanggup beli makan dari perut aku meragam tak tentu
hala.

That's all nanti kalau ada cerita yang maha hebat aku tulis lagi.

P/s : masa untuk buat kuak lentang gaya bebas.Yay...Good night =)

Story about U.G.L.Y

This is a story about a cat named 'Ugly'
with an inner BEAUTY that only those that care,
can see.

Please feel free to pass this story along to EVERYONE you know -- in hopes
that one day, they too ... will wish to be 'Ugly'.

 Ugly ...


Everyone in the apartment complex I lived in knew who Ugly was.
Ugly was the resident tomcat.
Ugly loved three things in this world ... fighting, eating garbage, and
shall we say ... love.
The combination of these things combined with a life spent outside had
their effect on Ugly.

To start with, he had only one eye, and where the other should have been
was a gaping hole.He was also missing his ear on the same side,
His left foot has appeared to have been badly broken at one time, and
had healed at an unnatural angle, making him look like he was always
turning the corner.
His tail has long been lost, leaving only the smallest stub, which he
would constantly jerk and twitch.
Ugly would have been a dark gray tabby striped-type, except for the
sores covering his head, neck, even his shoulders with thick, yellowing
scabs.

Every time someone saw Ugly there was the same reaction.
"That's one UGLY cat!!"All the children were warned not to touch
him.
The adults threw rocks at him, hosed him down, squirted him when he
tried to come in their homes, or shut his paws in the door when he would
not leave.Ugly always had the same reaction.
If you turned the hose on him, he would stand there, getting soaked
until you gave up and quit.
If you threw things at him, he would curl his lanky body around his feet
in
forgiveness.
Whenever he spied children, he would come running meowing frantically
and bump his head against their hands, begging for their love.
If you ever picked him up he would immediately begin suckling on your
shirt, earrings, whatever he could find.

One day Ugly shared his love with the neighbors huskies.
They did not respond kindly, and Ugly was badly mauled.
From my apartment I could hear his screams, and I tried to rush to his
aid.
By the time I got to where he was laying, it was apparent Ugly's sad
life was almost at an end.
Ugly lay in a wet circle, his back legs and lower back twisted grossly
out of shape, a gaping tear in the white strip of fur that ran down his
front.
As I picked him up and tried to carry him home I could hear him wheezing
and gasping,and could feel him struggling.
I must be hurting him terribly I thought.
Then I felt a familiar tugging, sucking sensation on my ear.
Ugly, in so much pain, suffering and obviously dying was trying to
suckle my ear.
I pulled him closer to me, and he bumped the palm of my hand with his
head,
then he turned his one golden eye towards me, and I could hear the
distinct sound of purring.
Even in the greatest pain, that ugly battled-scarred cat was asking only
for a little affection, perhaps some compassion.
At that moment I thought Ugly was the most beautiful, loving creature I
had ever seen.
Never once did he try to bite or scratch me, or even try to get away
from me, or struggle in any way.
Ugly just looked up at me completely trusting in me to relieve his pain.

Ugly died in my arms before I could get inside, but I sat and held him
for a long time afterwards, thinking about how one scared, deformed
little stray could so alter my opinion about what it means to have true
pureness of spirit, to love so totally and truly.

Ugly taught me more about giving and compassion than a thousand books,
lectures, or talk show specials ever could, and for that I will always
be thankful.
He had been scarred on the outside, but I was scarred on the inside, and
it was time for me to move on and learn to love truly and deeply.
To give my total to those I cared for.
Many people want to be richer, more successful, well liked, beautiful,
but for me ...
I will always try to be Ugly.

Outta my life bitch!!

Dear Bloggie,

It has been so long I didn't write my stories here..It seems I wanted badly to write over my vacations experience and etc.However loads of things happen which I assume no one would understand accept myself.

FYI, I just recover from chicken pox, which I have no idea..Totally out of mind from where I got it..Hoho..My greatest pressie on 1st of April 2012...Holy shit man..I was realized the blister, the lump on my neck and my body and I was like..Oh just because on that week I ate loads of seafood.So fyra assumption : Food Allergy..

WARNING: IF SOMETHING WEIRD APPEAR ON YOUR BODY, YOU HAVE TO DIRECT YOURSELF TO NEAREST CLINIC,HOSPITAL or ANYWHERE..Do not have

your so call own assumption.

It was bad for yourself for beginning month.I was suffered like hell with the spot grows like nobody business on whole body..I was crying like a sh*t wondering my skin goes hell.

EVERYONE KNOWS HOW MUCH FYRA ADORE HER OWN SKINS..Grr..2nd Of April I am back home and mum and dad took care of me.Seriously I am about to death I guess so.I feel weak,not comfy and sleepy.Most of time I was fall asleep.And thankfully No urgent calls from work.Only a few and I screen all the calls.I am so sorry.At that moment what I need

was a sleep sleep,water,sleep, sleep and comfort.Things turn to much more better after I took propolis and few medicines.YES..It burned most of my salaries..Uwaa...But it pay off..Now only a few spot and it getting fade day by day.

Well, is not that point..Sick makes me had more time for myself and yes I am recover from heart broke during that time. March was the worst month for myself.I am seriously have no idea

what is going on.I better say, things happen with a reasons and I had swallowed of the facts.

I was madly on crush with someone who is 1000 miles or 2000 miles away from me.I am blinded frankly.When he was disappear with no news I am learnt to accept the fact.In fact is not

first time.I am learnt to accept he is not belong to me. Icha and Rudy Azhar are 2 persons, the most who comfy me when HE WAS GONE.Eventually on that hardest time I do have surrounded friends, families who well support me and cheer me up.

March was a month I found him again..And yes I was HAPPY EXCITEDLY and knows HE IS BACK.I have no idea how to put in words but I am Happy..YES I AM HAPPY..But I may forget event the chocolate have an expiry date.Is like how you feel when sweet stuff turn to sour. And thats I had face in just blink of my eye the feeling.I gone mad after found out through the conversations.Seriously I felt stupid,useless and few others feelings.And FYRA lost her GRIP!!!Thanks to Ichaa, Rudy Azhar, Eddy,Mr Sing and few of them who comfort me

during the hardest time.Ichaa was basically being just like mom warned me not to do stupid stuff..I cried a lot..It makes me feel better.Thanks Eddy..I know finally you saw me crying.Hahha..Silly Fyra..Yes the feeling is gone.I bet off.Eddy was warned and advised me to erase the pictures.Yes, I will do when I have the guts but not now.I may erase the picture

but not the memories I had crafted with him.

Dad was right.He never went wrong when I told him about this guy. Dad said " It is a sign to leave him, you cried a lot than you laugh harder when you was with him". Furthermore mum, on the other hand quote me something that makes me takes this thing in a very very positive side " When people walk away from you, let them go. Your destiny is never tied to anyone who leaves you, and it doesn't mean they are bad people. It just means that their part in your story is over".

Thanks to mum and dad.You know your daughter loves to do hard things and discover everything is wrong by the end of the day.

Yes, I do accept the fact but sometimes in the middle of night or when I am alone I am wondering about him and think of how he does.My pray goes with him.I just wish him all the best in his life.Is not his mistake came in to my life.It is my mistake by letting the feelings get carried me away.

Anyway..thats all.I have nothing more to tell.Maybe will write off my past vacations experiences or any interesting stories.

p/s: Fyra still with her dumb blond research for her next get away... =)