Dear Bloggie,
It has been so long I didn't write
my stories here..It seems I wanted badly to write over my vacations
experience and etc.However loads of things happen which I assume no one
would understand accept myself.
FYI, I just recover from chicken
pox, which I have no idea..Totally out of mind from where I got
it..Hoho..My greatest pressie on 1st of April 2012...Holy shit man..I
was realized the blister, the lump on my neck and my body and I was
like..Oh just because on that week I ate loads of seafood.So fyra
assumption : Food Allergy..
WARNING: IF SOMETHING WEIRD APPEAR ON YOUR BODY, YOU HAVE TO DIRECT YOURSELF TO NEAREST CLINIC,HOSPITAL or ANYWHERE..Do not have
your so call own assumption.
It was bad for yourself for
beginning month.I was suffered like hell with the spot grows like nobody
business on whole body..I was crying like a sh*t wondering my skin goes
hell.
EVERYONE KNOWS HOW MUCH FYRA ADORE
HER OWN SKINS..Grr..2nd Of April I am back home and mum and dad took
care of me.Seriously I am about to death I guess so.I feel weak,not
comfy and sleepy.Most of time I was fall asleep.And thankfully No urgent
calls from work.Only a few and I screen all the calls.I am so sorry.At
that moment what I need
was a sleep sleep,water,sleep,
sleep and comfort.Things turn to much more better after I took propolis
and few medicines.YES..It burned most of my salaries..Uwaa...But it pay
off..Now only a few spot and it getting fade day by day.
Well, is not that point..Sick
makes me had more time for myself and yes I am recover from heart broke
during that time. March was the worst month for myself.I am seriously
have no idea
what is going on.I better say, things happen with a reasons and I had swallowed of the facts.
I was madly on crush with someone
who is 1000 miles or 2000 miles away from me.I am blinded frankly.When
he was disappear with no news I am learnt to accept the fact.In fact is
not
first time.I am learnt to accept
he is not belong to me. Icha and Rudy Azhar are 2 persons, the most who
comfy me when HE WAS GONE.Eventually on that hardest time I do have
surrounded friends, families who well support me and cheer me up.
March was a month I found him
again..And yes I was HAPPY EXCITEDLY and knows HE IS BACK.I have no idea
how to put in words but I am Happy..YES I AM HAPPY..But I may forget
event the chocolate have an expiry date.Is like how you feel when sweet
stuff turn to sour. And thats I had face in just blink of my eye the
feeling.I gone mad after found out through the conversations.Seriously I
felt stupid,useless and few others feelings.And FYRA lost her
GRIP!!!Thanks to Ichaa, Rudy Azhar, Eddy,Mr Sing and few of them who
comfort me
during the hardest time.Ichaa was
basically being just like mom warned me not to do stupid stuff..I cried a
lot..It makes me feel better.Thanks Eddy..I know finally you saw me
crying.Hahha..Silly Fyra..Yes the feeling is gone.I bet off.Eddy was
warned and advised me to erase the pictures.Yes, I will do when I have
the guts but not now.I may erase the picture
but not the memories I had crafted with him.
Dad was right.He never went wrong
when I told him about this guy. Dad said " It is a sign to leave him,
you cried a lot than you laugh harder when you was with him".
Furthermore mum, on the other hand quote me something that makes me
takes this thing in a very very positive side " When people walk away from
you, let them go. Your destiny is never tied to anyone who leaves you,
and it doesn't mean they are bad people. It just means that their part
in your story is over".
Thanks to mum and dad.You know your daughter loves to do hard things and discover everything is wrong by the end of the day.
Yes, I do accept the fact but
sometimes in the middle of night or when I am alone I am wondering about
him and think of how he does.My pray goes with him.I just wish him all
the best in his life.Is not his mistake came in to my life.It is my
mistake by letting the feelings get carried me away.
Anyway..thats all.I have nothing more to tell.Maybe will write off my past vacations experiences or any interesting stories.
p/s: Fyra still with her dumb blond research for her next get away... =)
