I am September

JANUARY = CHATTER Loves to chat. Loves those who love... them. Loves to takes things at the centre. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn’t pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to cont...rol emotions. Unpredictable.Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them MFE.

FEBRUARY = THUG Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. sexiest out of everyone.A real speed demon. Has more than one best friend. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH = GORGEOUS Drop dead gorgeous!!! Attractive personality. Very sexy!!. Affectionate & Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Chatterbox! Loves to talk alot! Loves to get their way! . Unbelievable kisser! Easily angered. Very stubborn in the most way possible! Loves to get noticed! Willing to take risks for others. Makes good choices. Has a great fashion sense! Maybe a little too popular with others . Outgoing and crazy at times! Intelligent. Can sometimes be a heartbreaker! Can love as much as possible! Hates insults. Loves compliments! and quiet the charmer. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. The best in bed out of the other 11 months!! Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Observant and assesses others.likes to keep theyre crushes kinda secret.pretty much flawless.

APRIL = SEXY Suave and compromising.. Funny and humorous. Stubborn. Very talkative. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does work well with others. Very confident. Sensitive.. Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Able to cheer everyone up and/or make them laugh. Able to motivate oneself and others. Understanding. Fun to be around. Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality. Secretive. Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure and travelling. Systematic.. Hot but has brains.

MAY = LOVER Hella sexy, loves sex n making luv, tends to be SOOOOO hott!! Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people’s problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have many friends. Enjoys to make love. Emotional. Stubborn. Hasty. Good memory. Moving, motivates oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore. Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can understand.

JUNE = FINEASS Fun to be with. Loves to try new things. Boy/girls LOVE you. You are very hott. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takesrep pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people’s feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly.spazzy at times.Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

JULY = GANGSTA You’ve got the best personality and are an absolute pleasure to be around. You love to make new friends and be outgoing. You are a great flirt and more than likely have a very attractive partner, a wicked hottie. Like somebody with a JUNE brithday. It is also more likely than that you have a massive record collection. When it comes to films, you know how to pick them and may one day become a famous actor/actress yourself - heck, you’ve got the looks for it!!!

AUGUST = ATTITUDE outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on attention. self control. kind hearted. Self confident. loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful. easy to get along with and talk to. has an “every thing’s peachy” attitude. likes talking and singing. loves music. daydreamer. easily distracted. Hates not being trusted. BIG imagination. loves to be loved. hates studying. in need of “that someone”. longs for freedom. rebellious when withheld or restricted. lives by “no pain no gain” caring. always a suspect. playful. mysterious. “charming” or “beautiful” to everyone. stubborn. curious.. independent. strong willed. a fighter.

SEPTEMBER = IMP Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the centre. Great in bed. Inner and physical beauty. Doesn’t pretend. Gets angry often. A meaningful love life partner. Makes right choices. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Does not harm others. It is all about love and fairness. Easily hurt and hard to recover. Daydreamer and does fullfill. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Knows what to do, to have fun. Unpredictable. Someone to have close to you. Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all.

OCTOBER = HOTTIE Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, you ever begin a relationship with someone from this month, hold on to them because their one of a kind.

NOVEMBER = SWEETIE Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck.. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike being at home. Restless. having many children. Hardworking. High spirited.

DECEMBER = BEAUTY This straight-up means ur the most good-looking Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive in everything. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Loves freedom. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike being at home. Restless. having many children. Hardworking. High spirited

No more drama

Just as every summer ends, all tourists come home. All dreamers wake up. And new problems are born.

And just like that, a pretty girl's ugly secret is revealed.But no matter what the season brings..

Me always Me..Nothing change!!

~Sometimes you just have to come clean. No matter how many dirty secrets come out~

October about to end soon!!..Then I do realized a lot of things happen in this 2011..

I personally felt that 2011 are colourfull..Hahha.I really mean it.

In fact I knew someone, who actually yang aku anggap macam family kan..But because one thing happen

all faded away. Just because a wrong sending mail, I was given a silence treatment..Haha..In fact

the most heart break statement "Eh I thought you celebrate lavishly with your so called amantes"

Wohoo People like this deserve the standing ovation of your tallest finger..So enough with it..

However one more things like I just realized with my monkey bro.Someone is sick and really really fucking

a doctor right now.Well I am pretty sorry for you. You really NEED a doctor to fade away your paranoid

or kind of your attitude of lurve-to-jump-to conclusion..And after that.YOUTHINKYOUALWAYSRIGHTEVENYOUARENOT!!

Hmm..the best part was like I have no idea why...MAk banyak kerja nok..But I do follow the flow..It is part and parcel that I need to reduce my tensed with my works =)

The funny is you are well educated person. And I was adore you before and always proud to have you

as a part of my families..

But now..I was wrong A BIG TOTALLY WRONG..LOL..Never judge a book by its cover..I should flip more the pages till end..

Anyway..I am not losing anything..And I dont mind to losing something which is new and fragile

I am looking for high end quality of friendship.I do haveThe persons who always accept the best and even the worst of me....And I do appreciate to the max..I do have Baq, My monkey bro and few of amantes !!

I know with kind of my attitude..I dont have any problems to find so call friends.

However, I am not stupid enough.I am very picky to choose whom i want to be. But this time

I was made kind of big mistakes..The warning that I had been received earlier...Should not be ignored..

The terms IGNORANCE JUST A BLISS..Doesnt work weiii...

Nevertheless.I felt sorry to my monkey bro..Due of this..I am so sorry..My mistake..But.I feel so entertained

with this kind of drama..it is time to grab a pop corn and continue what's next!!

Enjoy the show peeps!!!

A piece of ME

Slowly slowly … the faces fade away The memories of yesterday pass away … If only it wasn’t for that day … an old street just an old street reminds me of that day Just an old street with the same green trees … it’s just a different day Nothing has changed … but only me For better or worst might be … Walking along … the memories recalled of another day and another... I remember when I walked away … as I knew I won’t walk it again Since then thing are just the same … just an older than me street Strange isn’t it … how things can remain some time the same I walked away and I know this way … it impossible for me to come again How strong that street can be I can’t face it …. I don’t want, and so I don’t want to walk it again but for some reason I went that way … My father used to say …. You can say so much son … but you can only do less … … maybe one day I can do more than I say ... maybe I can And so I went a head …for some time not for so long … then I look back It all looks so close while it’s yet so far away …. the years has based away just like the face that faded away ... that street saw it all ... all that way Whoever comes back ... comes with pain … from the past they come with pain Walking that street I though I know ... who walked in and out was never their Those trees where ... I found it very difficult to try and understand ... Piece ... here and there ... almost every where and from anywhere collected and then thrown away A plate full of honey ... can only give you honey ... a street full of traffic will only hold you back

Feeling Feeling

AA:Every girl fantasizes about finding her Prince Charming. But if that Prince refuses to come...

A girl has to take matters into her own hands...

So enough of the BassNess Story.I am interested to tell my story and my MB....

My MB currently in somewhere..Saja aku tak nak state..Kang di tahu mampus.haahahha

Ok..So masa raya tu kan..My MB wish me selamat hari raya terus i tertido pukul 1 am..Happy punya pasal

Muahaha..Buruk gila perangai macam tu..Mak aku pun excited bila MB ada cakap nak datang Penang if kerja dia

habis awal..ehehhe

Anyway MB memang keep promised dari dia kat SG sampai la kat US dia keep in touch dengan aku..

Even x la setiap 1 jam but we keep updated each other..gila setiap 1 jam..mati la aku..

With him i do feel comfy very much..and safe..

The most memorable memory when he walked me in KL..actually kat changkat je.Yes for others might be

nothing but for me I feel so special.And the tears was about to running down. Satu benda yang aku

tak pernah alami.Sedih tak tentu pasal.hehhe..

Kan..over tau...Hah.then since he in US, ada je masa lapang bila dia free aku free YM je kerja kami..

Muahaa..ada je yang nak di cakap.Terus mak bunga bunga je hati..Pergi kerja pun energetic gitew..

Muaahahah..Padahal cerita tu xde la apa sangat.But the time he spend masa break buzz aku.Make me appreciate.

Then after that..baru aku realized..ala2 discovery channel even my monkey bro cakap

"Apa yg ko discovery,dia nyah ke..Grrr.."

Aku discovered kan.My MB ada sense of humour..Muahaha..Over a year baru aku sedar..Hahaha..Ye la jumpa

pun jarang.Dia pergi sana sini.One thing I do respect about him..Even he is someone,money is not big

problem for him, he is very humble.Satu benda yang aku suka..hehehe

Then bila aku tanya kat En Rudy.."macamana ko tahu aku suka dia ek?"

Terus dia jawab "i know J is special..jgn tanya mcmana i tau ok..nanti i jwb dgn stupiakk answer..lol"

harus aku ketok dia..haahhah

Even masa aku lambat masa jumpa dia..Sebab masa tu jammed, he still acting cool la..Sumpah kalau

orang lain habis aku di carutsss.hehhee..

Kan..memang aku rasa happy la..But as usual i cant be excited too much even mid october dia akan

datang sini katanya.I need to discover wether he is martini straight up or vodka with a twist..

Bare in mind cik AA..heehhe.

In fact i memang suka dia..But I kena ukur diri I..Dia tu Encik Pilot.Baik gila, Gentleman gila..So aku

waras lagi..In fact ada rezeki ada la..Tak de tak perlu nak meroyan tahap gaban kan..Hhehehe

"The problem with fairy tales is that they set a girl up for disappointment.

In real life, the Prince goes off with the wrong Princess.

Or the spell wears off and two lovers realize they're better off as... well, whatever they are...

But I'll confess. Every once in awhile a girl craves her fairy tale ending.

So sleep tight, kiddies. It seems like AA got her happily ever after.

~Bisou Bisou~

Fade Away

AA :Thanksgiving, my favorite holiday.

As always I'll be spending it giving thanks for the bounty of secrets I've harvested from you this year.

But leave a place for me at your table. I'll be back for just desserts.

Well..It is October..Wohoo..I wish October are much much better that September..

Obviously loads of things happen last month.The bad one was A PERSON that was closed to me is no more longer.

I do admit that was my mistake.However, silent treatment and pretending nothing happen doesnt make

me feel good.

In fact..Bila aku bertanya perlu ke jawab nak tak nak kan.Seolah olah ko buat serupa gua bakar lu

punya Honda woo..Teramat la macam fukkeymeks kan..Hello..Kalau aku buat salah seolah olah besar

kan,bukan ko tak boleh tegur kan.Apa ko ingat aku bebal ke nok.Maybe sometimes I act stupid but I am not ok.

Then perlu ke ko nak bagi tahu sealam at least save me from Tony Romas and watsoever..Ko ingat aku

tak berduit ke nak beli? Kalau aku tak berduit pun aku senyap, berduit pun aku senyap..Sebab aku tahu

aku mampu beli nak makan ke nak sapu makan.In fact not first time, aku pergi Tony Romas.Lain la baru

keluar dari gua kan..

p/s : nampak sangat ko x ikhlas.Thanks God la kan ko x belanja..Kang mak aku terima mayat aku sebab

makan mati tercekik kan..

Kan..Plus masa nak pergi TJR..Aku sanggup tukar date vacation masa birthday aku pergi tarikh lain then bila

confirm..Boleh ko ckap : I thought u celebrate lavishly with your so called amantes.Pukitai sungguh

Aku akui..Perkataan Fukkeymeks tue kinda hardcore.Untuk ko la but for those who knewing me

over 1 year above no one senrtap macam ko kan..In fact aku rasa ye la kot ko orang tua yang agak

beremosi..Terus rasa rasa nak kasi Kotex ke Carefree..Since aku rasa bersalah kan maki ko kan..

So aku minta maaf la. Kan dan buat salah..

Wah..Memang ego ko tinggi kan..AKu ingat ego aku tinggi ala2 KLCC kan.Rupa-rupanya terus ko buat blog

kan..Ala2 follow me on twitter gitew after aku sms minta maaf..

Siap buat paragraph ok.Kelas Ko MARIA..Ko ingat aku ni bebal

ke or bangangnya x reti baca. Doesnt mean high end educations reflected you are brilliant enough, if you

think like arsehole..

Takpe aku x kesah,aku sabar je..Tapi bila aku baca wah melampau kan.Kalau x nak maaf tak perlu la

berblog kan..So x pe la kan..Ingat ingat dah habis rupa rupanya ada juga..Ala2 kesinambungan..

Memang masalah la kalau ko cari pasal dengan anak Asfari ye.

Even aku gu gu ga ga..Jangan ko ingat aku ni tak reti nak tepis semua ye.

Ye aku tahu memang dah xde kemaafan kan.So x perlu la ko nak highlight pasal diri aku kat blog.Sebab

bila aku baca feeling feeling glamer la pula.XIXI..

Apapun aku akan ye..Over time, the memories will fade away so does our existence.

Lu jangan risau..Apa yang ada gua akan delete. In fact kalau terserempak kalau ada jalan yang jauh.

harus aku U turn ke apa ke.Kang ada yang meroyan kan..Aku x hadap pun nak jumpa dah.In fact aku dah try macam macam

nak minta maaf.Takpe.I done my part.Aku x kisah nak hadap kan. Infact aku kenal ko baru 4 bulan..Ala2 probation period.

Tak kisah kenal ke tak kenal aku still bernafas, makan ikut time, tido lambat..So life sama sajorkk

I am willing to let you go as long I am not losing others that I knew more than a year. Yang boleh terima aku bila aku mencaruts, melawak

and etc. Mulut I memang jahat.Untuk orang yang bersopan santun (kepada sesiapa yang rasa dia bersopan jangan la kawan dengan aku)

Kang ada yang serntap.Hheheheh..

So is okey..Anyway Happy October beautiful people..Lagi 2 bulan nak new year..Yea yea..

FABULOUS 24..

Fabulous 24..

I am in stage of fabulous 24.Last saturday 17th September..

Well...I am happy that I am reaching 24..and blessed with great families and friends around me..

(precisely not all).

Before my big days, Fleur made a heartfelt visit..Which i taught she pulling my legs.She coming all

away from Holland to see me..Great right.In fact.I do reserved a table at SKybar Traders.I taught it gonna

be my 2nd visit.Wanted a couch sit that facing direct to KLCC..However I am able to reserved a high table

seat..Grrr...

Mum and dad wish me on 17th mid night..Hahha which makes me so touch..I cant believe I am big girl already

Er with my sized..I am big what..haha..I still believe I am Kiddo..Like my foster Dad Roland Louis told me

No matter how old are you, you still be my baby in the families..Sweet right.

Then my monkey bro..Wish me..Oh my..He never missed my big day..But his big day will be more grand ok.

Masa deepavali..Harus i dapatkan sari dari masjid india sekali dengan gelang kaki chin ching pakai

masa hari jadi dia..haha..Ko mampu?Mesej dia buat aku tergelak ok.Oh my..besides that I received others wishes

via sms,call and FB..

The icing on the cakes.It is my big day.I just want to be with my bitches..Since I was so busy back home

spend more time with families and etc.I dont want to be left out with them.However things doesnt

went well as I planned.

(Good Morning NY this is your wake up call!!)

A few days before my big day, I informed that lets have a drink in Werners. Well as per P and L..We are

working morning, busy and bla3.But for me is ok lets give a try..Being with bitches is great.

Well on 17th September afternoon, I received a call from the bitcha for the wishes (tq again), what

a melancholy Fyra throw a questions would u mind to come tonight..And again the answers was so so.

The bitches do asked me what is my planned..Since my original plan was SKybar-Werners..

And they told me, we are working morning.So i told them is ok.No need to worries next time..

Coz for me, is ok orang tak nak jangan di paksa..Ko sendiri paham la kan where u belong right..Lagi

mau tanya..Am i right..

So i am awake at 4pm..After the dutches Fleur silent her mobile..And dia tido macam orang mati ko tahu tak.

Then she send me sms "Holy fuck, Jesus..U send me sms like someone die!!"

Ok..biba sangat ko tu tido mati ok..Siap aku yang lawa ni pergi North block ketuk rumah dia ok..Like hello

mujur mak tak call 911 ok.Grr..Then she was wait me at pool at 5..I was like..Please dont pull me to pool.

X kuasa i ok..hahaha..

Then at 5.15pm..she was running to me.with a cake..A slice of cake from Secret Recipe.She kissed my

cheek and wished Happy Birthday Hot Stuff..I was like thank you..Thanks for the surprised..Since it was my big day

Fleur asked me to cancel table at SKybar.I was like..Hell no..But fleur was like..Please allow me

to surprised you.OK and Minah belanda ni..Surprised me with a dinner at La Bodega. Infact the staff over there

sang me a birthday Song..OMG..I was like auwww..Mummy i am so happy...

But no so long..I received a sms from Joey to check whether his room is being reserved or not? I was like

guys..Break please.Are u buzzing me for room.Yeah so what makes u want me to approved? Do u reckon the SOP

of the resv? Well please follow the SOP.Even me, i pun ikut channel ye send to HR and etc.

Even Pauline HM pun submit apatah lagi U kan.I bukan nak berlagak..SO after sms bla2..Then I told him why not

check with VKL.Since my mood was like fucked up..Fleur was like trying to cool me down.Come on guys

it is my big day..I just want to have a peaceful night..And It doesnt too long and Joey called me..

Biba kan..So i was like Joey just check at VKL la..then he was crap ntah due i was so damn fucked up..

Ok fine.U deal with the truth fyra...Bithces away and no one of your groupy celebrate your birthday?

Well if others.Di planning ye..Place,people,fucking cakes and candles to blow..I am not asking all of

this..I just want to be with my fucking bitches..But since all of them with fucked up excuse...

So sendiri mau sedar la kan..So i was like fine..I was told Joey enough..And Joey hang up phone might

be he cant stand i am starting swearing..Muahaha..CCB..

So after the dinner we was stop by at Werners and fuck of changkat was heavenly pack..

(Ok since when chnagkat never packed?)Then we was having a drink..Great news fleur quitting alcohol ok

That is very lovely..

And after that 2 of us decide to back home since it is raining..So i was like ok back home and planning

to enjoy a hot tea and my twilight bookand out soon.not now..the night still young ok..In fact from changkat to home i was having a fight with the

bloodsucker taxi driver..Eh ini taxi biasa is not a limo ok.Cant you try not to cheat me.I am malaysian dude.

I am not arabic, or persian or thrash white female.Stop speaking english, aku boleh cakap melayu.Hello

mak melayu nok dont confuse with me face, hair and etc.Make sense ke dari changkat ke bistari RM 25..

Hello is not driving BMW Taxi!!Somemore was like nak naik naik la..Hello like ada satu je ke taxi kat

KL? Even ko je driver terakhir..I rela jalan kaki ok..Dah la bongkak..Biba sangat..

Then I do find one taxi.Ok la price reasonable RM 15 ok la somemore i caught in traffic..ok stop melalut..

Back home.AT 11.20 Afira home with heels, bags,makeup and lying on her couch.Auw..While listening to rain..

Romantic gila..I wish to be under arms of kucing siyam..hahaa..Gila..kan..sudah sudah la berangan.kang ada yang

kapal terbangnya terbabas kan..Vulgar gila imaginasi i ok..Ko mampu?

It wasnt long until Lavi called..I was like picked up or not..So i was like picked up the call..and lavi asked me where

am I?

So i told her i was somewhere..Due i am not mode to answer any calls or talks..And she asking me to heading to Werners.I was like

darla..you are not even confirmed with me..And what is this? Surprised?I do appreciate but thanks

you are too late I am home and I am out soon.So it is not my mistake if i want to change plan.

She was like bitch..This is how you acted la..I drove from Subang to Bukit Bintang and this is how la..Ok fine..Enjoy your day.

I was like watever ..It is not my fault..When I asked to go out no one want to confirmed.So if i changed my plan.

Do i need to inform..Guys I am celsius.Please see me..BE here..Sound desperate right..

Hello..I do have pride la..dah korang tak confirm salah I ke?

Then not to finish yet.Priya coming over trying to comfort me by sending sms.

"y la dey marah dgn kite"..So estate tau Priya..mau aku gelak..

Of coz l marah kan..i nak tukar plan salah I ke? I know I am not belong to all of u..

Priya was like asking me to chill and rilex..In fact she told me..dont spoiled my auspicious day..

I was like fucked it already spoiled..

Swear to god, holyshit..Just because of someone I am changing my holy fucking holidays to end of september..

Otherwise I am stranded in the island ok..Enough..Next year 2012..If I am still alive la kan..

my 25 will be somewhere.By hook or by crook..No matter what.I am so sorry but sometimes.I need to be selfish..

And i was talked to Ichaa and expressed my broken heart.He was comfort me from HK.Uwaaa..My kucing siyam busy...

And it wasnt long.I was cried like a watever thinking of this friendship and etc..Well i stated F..

Friends or Foe..or Fuck..

Azhar was buzz me at FB..it doesnt took me to long to call my monkey bro..Who is always my listener,

gossip partner and etc..Sorry I cant hide my tears..Harus ko tadah ok.hahhaa..

I am feeling better after I telling him the stories..I wish he is next to me now..Uwaaa..I lurve u monkey..

Ok ok and now i am better.

The best is 20th September I was called mama and sang her a birthday song..I lurve u mummy..And guest what Joey was check in

in VKL..Oh yeah.I am the 1 who approved the room.

He was like ..U still serntap?My face expressed 1000words.I was like of coz..No hugs like I always do..Sorry mate I cant even

accept on how all of you acted.Friend? Maybe not anymore..Maybe you just a stranger.We was shake hand..Told you what,

I am not even in the mood to see them.Well You all just make me hate all of you.INDEED..Well Joey was trying to comfort me..I am so sorry but i try not to deal with all of you anymore..

Then after check him in I was like received a sms about mineral water.No mineral water..I was like here we are not provide any mineral water.And he was like reply like this"eh dkat mariot ada tau hokeh"

Purlease la ok..I was in marriot and in Ritz.In fact I do have stay in Ritz Suite before and complimentary upgrade rooms..So with and without

staff rate..So fyra reply like this.."like that stay je in marriott"

you all dont fucking berlagak la ye..Like I never stayed there..U deal with a wrong person..

Before he back home..He was looking for me, even I dont want to see him anymore..

But i went see him and he was like..As usual you take care me..Called me if you want to go out..Maybe u tak keluar dengan kita kot.

FOr first time over the whole fucking relationship, i told him..I would not called you, I know where I am belong to..

Is ok i know how to carry myself.Is Ok..I am fine..I would not called them anymore.Seriously this time

I serntap gila..In fact he was asked Bong to look after me..I was like , now worries if I am felt

down, I know how to wake up back and back to tracked..Guys I am not the one who created this..

But please leave yourself in my place and think.Por Favour I dont want to talk or think about this again..

Before I am ended up this entry..I wish i am gonna have a fabulous 24 with my families and friends around me..

I lurve you guys.

p/s Moral of the stories.next time others birthday..Just ignore je..U have a better life/day if you cut

your routine..cakap je..i kerja pagi.. x larat nak bangun..Diva kena tidur cukup..nanti laki

lari sebab kulit sembap how la..Terus market drop..Laki tinggal I how la..

A birthday can be a red hot weapon of revenge. Or a heartfelt apology.Or sometimes, there's a way to candy coat the fact you're all alone.

But whatever your big day brings, never forget that some years, it's a massacre.

~Bisou Bisou~

Touch of Fyra

Sitting in front of the computer while listening raya song (finding a mood of raya even I am not feel of it)..I have no idea.. Frankly speaking I am not feel to celebrate raya this year. The reason I am back home next week just because to see my parents. The rest of it..It is just fake..Fake ok..I am trying hard to create a mood by physcho myself that this raya will be much more better than before. However it doesn't help at all. I have no idea WHY..??Obviously last night accompany my partners in crime searched jubah for along and he managed to get one. Erk aku still no idea nak ke x nak beli.I was so tired last night .Back from sahur..I maanged to have hot shower and straight jump on my bed....I had fun with them.So i was happy last night....Which i feel i am blessed to get the feelings back. What was happen this week.Yeah this week just pissed me off. However surprisingly this time, I just pretend everything seems good. Even deep down inside my heart. I bet it is worst..Worst ok..I have no idea where to start at.Starting from my workplace, sort of confiscate relationship and so and so. Work, everything is ok.However I am not feel of kind of appreciation. Therefore I am thinking of to start or just shut up and move ahead. I have no idea why I have this kind of this feeling..But everything I feel have a reasons.. Relationship...Do understand it is hard to predict. However I believe "In the prestigious builidng in KL's Elite, Sometimes I'm mistakenly open the door that belong to someone else"...Muahaha..Mau ada yang kena jerit dan di jerit kan..Ok ok.. Another one is empty promised...Ok pantang bagi aku kan..Kalau janji tu tolong la di tepati kan..If you keep give me the stupid promised of coz aku pun marah kan. Like hello you deal with human not a dolls.So I have no idea what to say.Sorry for being vulgar, but next time if something happen to you I WILL NEVER EVER HELP YOU ANYMORE. What you did just hurt me...You just brought back my worst self.. Me versus You...No Limits.. Maybe my mistakes too...I let someone in, and left my self cold outta there. Yet sometimes despite what I want, I may forget the door has too many locks. ~Bisou Bisou~

Dutchess Home Soon..

It was like a year that Fleur left me and fly back to Holland. She is one of my BFF.A slumber and easy going girl.

We met accidentally when I was on my way to Ritz Carlton for tea fair by Ronnefeldt. When Fleur here, few month before she back to Holland we became very closed. We do all things together together,shopping, clubbing and even girl talks moment. Enough of it.The icing on the cake is my favorite gurl will be home soon to see me..Auww.. It is so sweet....

It gonna be a blast month soon for us two..So basically I will see her. But wait guest what. Her brother..Drop dead handsome too. Uh lalala.Till then..

I love my dutchessssss

10 things about me...

There is nothing to be proud out..But who cares this is my blog..Rite.Well most of my sayang know well

about me..Sayang refers to Fatin,Rahmah,Hana,Azhar and rest of them.

Shall we start?

1. Chubby..

MUahaha..No matter how many times i tried hard to diet. I am still losing a few inch but i am still chubby.

Muahha..anyway i doesnt feel bad now.It is better than skinny rite..pegang sana sini tulang.I am represent real size figure okey

2. Shoes..

I do fans loads of shoes..Wah kan sanggup simpan duit semata mata untuk kasut.

3. Bag..

Lagi besar beg tu lagi bagus senang nak sumbat banyak benda...rasa rudy azhar pun lepas kan...

4.Food..

sapa tak suka makan sila berambus dari dunia ini.. ha...

makanan itu sedap! sedap kan makanan?? mcm tuh sekali trill nya aku bila bab makan ni kan.... akui kuat makan dan

x suka membazir..ishh..

5. Mandi

Bila bosan masuk dalam bilik air then berangan..lagi best tutup lampu then cucuh lilin feel romantic

padam semua lampu kan (then buka balik sebab gelap.) terus berus satu badan..kalau keluaq dari toilet x diva sangat saja kan..

6. Ketawa Kuat kuat..

Wah memang aku gelak non cover okey..sapa x suka sila berambus..Boleh...

7.Tidor

Memandangkan kerja aku mencabar sometimes bila cuti aku suka tidur..Wah best ok..Guling guling kat katil

sambil pelok teddy bear dan bantal busuk..

8. Berangan/ Day dream yang melampau..

Bila tunggu orang kan..Aku suka day dream okies..The wildest one espc bila nak sesuatu benda tu kan..

Terus rasa nak lari pergi ATM then tup tup dalam tu ada sejuta you - us - dee..hah kan ko mampu?

9. Online/Google freak.

Bila terdengar satu benda ke apa kan cheq sanggup berjam jam google okeyss..But the best is u r become

more informative and knowlegable "nak anyam ketupat mesti la kena ada proof kan,mana boleh main hentam je"

TECHNOLOGY STATE OF THE ART kaedahnya..tue belom FB,tweeter, Tagged, segala bagai..kalah artis gitew.

10. Gym..

Cukup suka okies..walaupun x kurus2 tapi di akui badan aku firm nok non geleber ok..Ko mampu?

hah kan..especially lari lari model kat treadmill sambil dengar lagu Akon "Angel" feeling macam tengah runway kan..hah Ko boley?

So ...these are 10 things randomly about me..

Anyway till then..

25 random things

25 of random things of Missy Fyra

1. I secretly read up on my horrorscope just to feel good about myself. We Virgorian are AWESOME! 2.I'd sit crossed legged anywhere and everywhere if i can. 3.I hated cats till Puddy came along. Now I do not feel like kicking cats anymore 4.I get away with things most of the time..and then sometimes i get busted... dammn! 5.I love big big high pressured shower heads... I get depressed when I have to leave hotel rooms 6.I'm in a better place now than I thought I'd be when i was doing my UPSR. I am still grateful for this... 7.I love to travel and I love the beach... I'm always planning my next getaway 8.I believe there's a Karma Police too... and he's out to get bad bad people.. and he has a car with a siren too. 9.I love Disney cartoons... I think my whole family can agree with me when I say the classics are way much more fun than the new ones... *ttruustttt innnn meeeeeee 10.I hate snakes.. and other reptiles.. they're not pets... neither are they food... but I wouldn't mind you throwing them in the flaming fires of hell... I can not watch National Geographic without screaming and asking the guy “WWHHYYYYY????” 11.I secretly can cook 'gourmet' for my survival.. I'm just not sure about yours... 12.I have no idea why i dated whoever i dated in the past years.... they scare the shit out of me now... 13.I cant say any different about the one i'm going out with now... but he cracks me up.. 14.My opinions matters to me & it hurts when you ignore it... yours seldom do... but i like to hear them anyway (we all do this.. get over it) 15.Funny things run through my head all the time.. I'm not smiling at you weirdly... 16.I'm fickle minded... and its not cause I cant make up my mind... its cause i want it all 17.I enjoy the company of my maternal family more... I am allowed to be whomever I want. 18.Most of my teachers / lecturers said I will be somebody someday... I'm beginning to think they were lying... 19.I can swap from rock to opera to oldies in matter of seconds... My MP3 playlist can never be understood or played out loud publicly. 20.I work for money... it helps to pay for my holidays away from work. 21.I take my battles to the graves if I believe I'm right... Even when you've won, you secretly feel the need to watch your back for the rest of your life. I”M GONNA GET YOUUUUU 22.I hate making appointments in advance... I always anticipate a better option. 23.I used to drink Scott's Emulsion from the bottle, swallow handfuls of Chewies (fav's the elephant & lion) and brush my teeth with tubes and tubes of Kodomo Lion toothpaste when I was 4... I still feel the urge to do the same... Why wasn't I being watched? 24.Hanging from the handles and lying on the head rests at the backseat of the car used to be my favorite to do while my dad drove me around when I was 4... I thank God for seatbelts now.. 25.I taught my cat to sit, lie down and play dead in a day... Now she does them all at once every time I have food in my hands.

Memories

Memories..

Everyone of us have their own so called memories. It doesnt matter whether it is good or bad.

Well just a quick thought.."some people come into our lives and leave footprints on our hearts...

others come into our lives and make us wanna leave footprints on their face".

Since i am off duty for 4 days. I am filling my own time over a breaking fasting time with my dearly friends at my working place.

Bad news along (one of my favourite brothers not came this time due he has something emergency).

It was good anyway.Sitting and enjoy the food and the same time having crapping with them.

After back home and sat down at sofa, I do realized i am alone at home while the other girls stil

in Penang with their boyfriend and Negin with Lyod prepare a quick trip to Singapore over their civil marriage.

Received a call from old friend changing my mind. I was at outside on Sunday night with the old friends and his families.Nevertheless makes me think about someone called Siamese Cats..

Actually only a few know who is a Siamese Cat..Well we met accidentally in a cyber world.

Then this gentleman invite me over a drink...and I met him..Frankly what I can describe he is a nice guy.

So from there we are became good friend...The best is kan.Masa mula mula aku jumpa dia kan..

I have no idea...I can describe is as a.erkkk Bapa Ayam..Babi kan statement aku..Muahaha

Ok ok from there we are became good friend but not so close macam Azhar la kan..Macam Azhar mau pening aku.

Jumpa lelaki baru di date segala bagai, Azhar juga yang akan tau kan..

Masa aku nak pindah rumah baru..He do offer me a hand in helping me to move all my item..(Tq babe).Infact after that he do arranged a dinner when he came back in KL.

However he do arrived late due flight delay and dinner was cancelled.

After that he disappeared ..Hilang tanpa berita. tup tup..I do received offline messages at YM he told me..Babe I am in Dubai.

I was like..Erkk..Feeling masa tue..( Happy,sebak,sedih dan lain lain) and he online after that..wah berbunga hati ku okies..

BrukBrek...then of coz la aku rasa happy gila kan....Tengok tingkap pun aku senyum and etc...

Hehhehe..Then he disapppear again..wah kan...giler jumpa then dissappear..

Bung Bang Bung Bang masa aku cuti...bila bangun..ialah ber YM ok..Then..Aku jumpa dia and he was in KL that time..Woowwwwwooo..Super happy ok bila dapat tahu he was in Kl that time..We was chat at YM before continue it over with dinner...

When i saw him..Menjerit aku..Oh my God you are so different...But he still him..With his friendliness and more stories yang dia akan cerita kat aku..

The icing on the cake was during that time he kept mentioned when he will see me again many times..Sumpah sebak aku wei nak menangis pun ada..I told him..Supposedly the question is by me to you not you are the one to ask me..Aku bagitahu dia..Ada rezeki aku akan jumpa dia balik..Insya Allah kan..Sumpah aku nak nangis dow..Sedih gila..after the dinner we walk along the street and upon leaving i was like shit..(fyra stop crying...i became emo bitch LOL)The best is after the dinner aku mengalami syndrome BLUR!!

Mujur sekarang blur tue dah berkurang..hehee..apa pun it is one of my greatest memories ok..Saat blog ni di tulis pun aku still senyum senyum..hehehe..stupid rite

Well if you read this, babe..do take care yourself.Hoping to see you around once you hit KL. I do miss you indeed =)

Petua 3B

Petua 3 B....

Since agak lama aku tak memblogkan diri due kerja yang agak busy..Girl's outing days..(which are a must in our families!!)

and so on..So I am here today..Exactly to write again..Uh lala..Petua 3 B ini actually di ambil dari sebuah

majalah yang aku pun tak berapa nak ingat..But agak menarik untuk jenaka santai...

Petua 3B

seorang pemuda bertemu seorang ustaz untuk meminta nasihat...

Pemuda:Ustaz, kenapa susah sangat saya hendak bertemu jodoh. Sampai sekarang saya belum ada kekasih..

Ustaz:Perempuan yang macam mana kamu idamkan?

Pemuda:Saya mahukan gadis yang cantik,tinggi,kurus,kulit putih dan mencintai saya sepenuh hati..

UStaz: Kalau begitu kamu harus ikut petua 3B.Pertamanya ialah BERUSAHA..

Pemuda: Sudah ustaz..Sudah berusaha.Merata tempat saya pergi cari perempuan. Tapi letih saja, seorang pun tidak dapat.

Ustaz:Kalau begitu kamu buat B yang kedua iaitu BERDOA DAN BERPUASA..

Pemuda: Itu pun saya dah buat ustaz. Lepas sembahyang saya akan berdoa. Setiap hari Isnin dan Khamis saya akan berpuasa.

Ustaz:Kalau itu pun kamu dah buat,nampaknya kamu sangat perlukan B yang ketiga..

Pemuda: Apa dia ustaz..Erkk Bunga..Mandi Bunga ke..

Ustaz: Erkk.Kamu perlu BERCERMIN DIRI..

My Boss and I

When I take a long time, I am Slow, When my boss takes a long time, he is Thorough When I don't do it, I am Lazy, When my boss didnt do it, he is Busy When I do something without being told, I am trying to be Smart, When my boss does the same, that is Iniatitive When I please my boss, I am Shoe Polishing, When my boss pleases his boss, that is Co-operating When I do good,my boss never Remembers When I do wrong, he never Forget

Some thoughts again...........

Some thoughts again... One day I met the Wend ... storming it was … Don't know where to go ... Charming and harming every where ... It stopped for me ... For me it stopped... Eyes staring in the empty space ... where you are I can't see.... feeling you I am ... Be carful ... far from land it said I might take you further away more than you think ... further away… Just like those little thoughts I have every day... It storms fast against my face feel me here cause I am ... Touch me now cause you can ... will hold you tight and take you away ... With me take you away....just like those little dreams ...drop you in the sea would I ... Deep the sea might be.... would you drown ... would you not ... If you do you will see what no one saw ... what no one did that the wind brought back again ... If you won't ...those little thought dreams will always be ... take you chance All of a sudden the sea tempting me ... take your chance the wind encourages me ... Don't wish for a second day ... for whom you are you can only bee ... Seemed like year after another … soft and tender it dropped me .... How deep can it be … The sea hug me … I belong there diving deep … how deep can it be Those little thoughts again and again ... the wonder I see ...how deep can't be ... I can feel your heart beats said the sea ...wait there are more to see ... So be it … drowning would it be ... last birth of the surface I take … the wend whispers to me a journey of love for real … will continue it latter on If you where to name this thought … what name would it be?

MAXIS MAXIS MAXIS MAXIS

MAXIS MAXIS MAXIS..

Happy Monday Dollls!!!

Yesterday dated on 17th July 2011, after 10 days I left KL, I am home..

Firstly, I screamed at home said "Hommies I am home!!! And Maryam out from her room,kissed and hugged me as usual.

I lurve u sista!!.

Then immediately I am unload my 1 month luggage, hang all my dresses,skirts,tops adn etc.I have mission.

Attacked MAXIS KLCC.Why? There was hidden stories behind it...Jeng jeng jeng...

Macamni hangpa tau tak masa cheq balik Penang kan suddenly x boleh guna tenet..Mula2 cheq ingat xde

signal sebab cheq portkan diri cheq kat dapoq..Tup tup cheq pon pindah la location kan ke ruang tamu.Aik xde jugak

terus cheq call customer service Maxis..Plus point cheq pon pelik kenapa bill telefon cheq suddenly sampai

RM 313.19..huiks kalah mak hayam chow kit kan buat bizness..Cheq ingat oh mungkin cheq sms kat singapore and etc kan..Then pikiaq pi

pikiaq mai x kan kot..

Then cheq recap la..Orang yang selalu cheq call or sms kerap..

a) Mama-sebab nak gossip pasal kerja,rambut,adik and etc.So we take turn mama call then aku la kan..Adil la.

b)Abah-sebab wajib call abah sehari sekali..Tapi abah susah nak call aku..sebab alasan..I kan abah..Boleh kan jawapan gitew..Tension tull

c) Azhar-untuk carutz dan dia akan dengar cerita si polan itu ini...

d)Abang hensem-untuk tanya khabar

e)Cikgu comel-sama macam abang hensem

f)Office-update kerja

g) Rahmah-untuk bawa aku jalan2

h) Priya-Laki aku untuk pergi club(seangkatan dengan Lavi Gila dengan Sufian Gedik)

i) Sms potensi prospect dan suspect

Sekali nak je keriau..Ko gila..Ada ke patut diaorang bagitahu macam ni..

"Ms Fyra the reason why we barred the line due you have 2 broadband and 1 of it not being paid yet..tHEN...YANG AKU BAYAR RM 250 TU APA?so Pondek kan.Dia cakap I need to make payment and they will continue to provide the service..Nak x nak cek bayar RM 100 keesokan hari kan..

Terus cheq teringat free gift yang dapat tu..Actually x la free gift.

Diaorang hantaq by courier dalam bulan April then diaorang cakap.."U may used anytime u want, once u activate

u may have 7 days free trial. If you satisfied with the service you may pay RM 100 and following next month we will

charge you RM 68 nett for the broadband.The point is i x cuma buka the box but i am not activate

any thing..Terus dari Penang cheq caruts kejap.And siap mimpi mimpi ok..

Sungguh macam babiks..Then dari Penang cheq balik ke KL dengan semangat kobar kobar ok..I kan iron lady,

mana boleh mengalah macam tue je..Hah..Sungguh semangat kesukanan u alls!!Muahaha..

Dong dang cheq unload luggage tahap express ok,siap habaq kat Maryam."the rest of the items, will unload

by this week, so please do not move my luggage"

Lepas tue almari macam kena serang garuda..Sebab nak cari broadband bodo free gift tue kan...Jumpa pon...

Mandi ala2 express..hahaha..Then terus cari dress zebra a gift from my friend.haha...apapun..imej kena

vavavoom ok...Gedik2 aku tunggu lift then toktektoktek cari taxi depan rumah..

Cadang nak naik Lrt then putra x jadik sebab dah 7.30pm..Hah rasakan..express mandi pon lambat siap...

Huh..

Dalam taxi cheq dok sibuk karang ayat untuk mempertahankan hak cheq ok..

Sampai kat maxis center KLCC terus ambik number then kejap je terus turn cheq..

Orang yang attend cheq nama dia Erin..

Terus hah cheq buat kalut jap..cheq cerita la..story A-Z...Cheq bagitahu kat dia macam ni "My bills rose for this 2 month totals RM 528.40..this things couldnt be happen

what on earth, Maxis charge me for the stuff i am not using after all without my authority!! For 2 month..Supposedly they need to give me courtesy calls

in order about this thing.I am being charged for things that I am not using (sambil menunjuk kotak broadband maxis bodo then simcard yang tak xguna langsung)

This is the prove!! Somemore u may check my records I (sambil menstresskan IIIII) not using it..U better do rebate on my bills or otherwise I am gonna make a scene here!!

Terus di panggilnya Si Muru colleague dia!! Hah ambik ko..charge aku lagik kan..Of coz aku x kan give up kan...Ko ingat aku perempuan simpanan Tan Sri ke ?

Eh kalau duit aku sekoyan pun x kan aku nak bayar benda yang aku x guna kan..dah la aku dah bayar bill telefon bulan lepas RM 350 untuk benda yang aku x guna kan

Tersangat la babiks..Nak beli dress kat Forever 21 terus aku pendam perasaan..So balas dendam

Memandangkan aku mempunyai bukti2 yang kukuh..Dan the best things diaorang x pula nak bangkang bangkang cakap aku kan..Somemore diaorang hantaq by courier bukan

bagi kat aku kat center pon..Terus aku minta yang tu yang ni..Actually best pula kalau complaint..Terus aku teringat guest guest yang selalu nak comp je masa

kat hotel..Terus aku pon berdrama kan..Muahaha..Best pula..Hah..Bila mulut durjana aku complaint kan..Sumpah x tahan korang dengar...

The icing on the cake diaorang rebate semua bill aku..Muahaha....Then the amount will be rebate in next bill...Hhaha..Hah..Korang dah la buat aku gigit

jari..sebab x dapat beli dress kat Forever 21..Kemponan so aku x kira..Dah dapat rebate ni satu rahmattt..Elok la aku dok blackmail nak make scene kan..Aku

xkira x jadi..straight away aku nak cakap "Call your manager now!!Muahaha....Tapi since diaorang memahami situasi aku so all settle..jengjengjeng

But I am not so stupiakk.I need a black and white supporting to cover my ass..So i have the copy of it with me now..Ok so settle..I cant wait to see

the figure of my bills next month..Muahaha...

Anyway..I am eyeing BB Playbook..Macam best la pula...Scrimp and save if i want it okey...

Till then...

~la moitié de moi, la moitié d'entre vous~

I am back to rock my world!!!

Dah berkurun aku x jenguk blog..haha..mencari vakum,mop and etc untuk kemas kemas kan habuk di sekeliling blog ni muahahaha...LOL..

A loads of things i would like to share..perhaps..or just spitting around what i had been through all this time rite...works,relationships,holidays,friendships and etc..

I do realized.I am getting old day by day..haha..terus cari alternatif lain BOTOX untuk kekali muda..The point each day each year i experienced or faced loads of things..Even sometimes kadang 2 aku fikir..Is it this is me? The one that people knew or new me or etc etc...

Is not easy to please your ownself anyway..I am blessed what I am HAVING Now..Maybe small list as below to show the bless thingy given By Allah to me..Alhamdullilah..

a) Great parents...

b) Awesome friends and new families members.

c) Job and post

d)Great home..

e) Food

and so and so..

Well anyway..I bet i should sit and write properly about this and that..Life is good but I do missed someone badly.A guy who is actually succeeded makes me confused after the dinner over a month ago..sumpah aku tidak lalu atau pijak kawasan itu dah..Motif..Hiba gila..For the first of my life..(Due aku nie agak2 iron lady kan..jarang nak nangis x tentu pasal) I cried and hate to say goodbye...Kalau la aku tahu nie yang bakal aku terima..(Feeling tidak tentu arah ) Sumpah aku x terima dinner invitation tue..

And now after back from dinner alone at QuaySide terus aku hanyot dengan perasaan tidak tentu arah nie lagi..Hebat gila penangan mamat nie dow....

Ok la aku nak buat signature terkelentang aka membuta..Nanti aku akan cerita semua dari segi dinner yang confuse, disaster holidays, guest yang kerjy dan segala bagai...

Out..

~la moitié de moi, la moitié d'entre vous~